i spy with my little eye…
remember that time when we were heading home from Syracuse, i miss those moments when we laughed together and try to win the game. I miss those time where we can hang out, watch tv, or just cooking dinner together..
those were great memories, and i just want to say, I miss you..
for my best host parents, bree and george <3
jadi, hari ini gatau kenapa saya ngomongin tentang pernikahan sama temen cowok di kelas. Lumayan sih, buat nambah wawasan gimana pandangan cowok tentang pernikahan itu sendiri.
well, diskusinya gak berjalan lancar, ditambah dengan dia yang kayak gak nerima pendapat saya tentang pernikahan pasangan yang satu angkatan waktu di sekolah..
kalau buat saya pribadi ya, susah, banget. Temen satu angkatan itu adalah orang yang kita tau banget walaupun kita gak teralu kenal. Apalagi kalau sekolahnya cuma punya tiga kelas di tiap angkatannya seperti sekolah saya yang tercinta ini..
Buat saya, kalau kita nikah tapi satu angkatan itu rasanya risih, apalagi kalau waktu di sekolah dulu, kita cuma temen biasa, bahkan kalau kita punya gebetan masing-masing, otomatis bakal buat kita jauuuuh lebih cemburuan..
tapi sebenernya ini tuh gak terlalu penting yah, apalagi dengan prinsip saya yang menikah itu bukan prioritas utama, yang penting itu sukses, bahagiain orang tua.. tapi bukan berarti saya gak mau nikah juga ya, tapi ya itu, saya bukan tipe orang yang ngebet buat nikah, seenggaknya di usia saya sekarang ini yaa.. fokus belajar aja dulu deh ;)
this is happening when i was watching NBA game in Madison Square Garden in NYC, NY Knicks vs Washington Wizard..
this is, i believe, the cutest, bravest, sweetest way to propose your fiancee to marry you :D
so i just got my grade accreditation from the University and i got C, well its a passing score, but still, I’m not so sure if the Architecture major will accept that along with my not-too-bad report card.
well, now that i got my grade already, I kinda change my own perspective of my future. I use to think that doesn’t matter what major I’m in, i will make a good living out of it.
well, not anymore, now I’m worried to death, how if I don’t get accepted, how if i can’t graduate, how if i can’t make my mom proud, and a lot of how if after that..
now, all i want is get into college, make a lot of friends, gain as much achievement as i can, and etc. Its not about a car that my mom promise me, not about my crush whose going to another city for college, or even about where and with who I’m going to hang out in college.
I just want to pay back all the thing my parents gave me all this time, i just want to make them proud, and even if that’s mean I’m going to apply to a major that I don’t have any interest in.
Mom, Dad, all my life is for you <3
so, i saw your face today, and the only thing i can do is pretending to bow, put my shoes on the rack, and go away.
i know that was wrong when i’m sitting right next to my best friend just to get your attention. I told him everything and we keep laughing, when i see your face, i just cant laugh anymore.
i remember when i told something to him and he called your name just to make me mad. He keeps calling your name, until i hit him, then he’ll say something not-so-important to you. no, i’m not mad, i just don’t want you to know my true feelings, because i know it just embarrassing. I just don’t want you to know that i have a huge crush on you.
i don’t want you to be like disgusted of me, just because i like you. No, i don’t want to, because the last guy i loved, did that to me, and that was hurt. I always hope that there was a time machine, so that i can go back in time where tell nobody that i like him, so me and him can be a close friend like usual.
yup, that was an intermezzo about my love story, never really have a great ending. So, if become a friend is the best way to be with you, that will do it.